It has been a very very busy month for us... We are officially heading to Peru... we are just waiting for the finances.... Of course we would love the Lord to provide this overnight so we can just be there already.... we feel kind of lost starting fundraising.. but how else do we let people know about the opportunity to partner with us if we dont share and ask... so thats what were going to start doing.
The biggest back and forth struggle for me(Courtney) is our comforts, our stuff, our home, our cars, our home decor, most importantly our family, our friends, our church... can we leave it all and go to Peru? Some days I feel so strong and my answer is yes... without a doubt. How can we not? How can we hear the call from Jesus and say no? How can we see the need and leave it be? We can't...we won't.
But then I look into the faces sunday morning of all the friends and people we have grown to love and cherish, who have become family to us... and I don't want to go! I don't want to leave them all behind... if you are reading this and you love us, will you all just come with us??!! That is including all of our loved ones all over!
The Lord is so faithful to speak to us... He has been providing peace and joy through it all, and we realized that if heaven is our home, then this life is just a hotel room, we are only visiting, our time here is temporary... all though the hotel room is beautiful, it isn't meant to bring us all the comforts of home.... only heaven can do that.... where our Father waits for us...
Here is a song that a dear friend shared with me by Josh Wilson its called "I refuse" and this is our heart....
Sometimes I,
I just want to close my eyes
And act like everyone's alright
When I know they're not
This world needs God, but it's easier to stand and watch
I could pray a prayer and just move on
Like nothing's wrong...
But I refuse.
I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
I could choose not to move
But I refuse.
I can hear the least of these,
crying out so desperately...
And I know we are the hands and feed of You, Oh God
So if You say move, it's time for me to follow through
And do what I was made to do
And show them who You are
I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
I could choose not to move
But I refuse.
I refuse to stand and watch the weary and lost cry out for help
I refuse to turn my back and try and act like all is well
I refuse to stay unchanged, to wait another day to die myself
I refuse to make one more excuse
I don't want to live like I don't care
I don't want to say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me to do myself
I could choose not to move
But I refuse.
This is our heart, to love like Jesus loved, to see people through His eyes, to see their need, their hearts, to see them and love them... to point them to Jesus...everywhere we go...
Ok so you can't come....I get it.... will you send us? Pray about financially supporting us and God's work in Peru... (BJ and I joked that none of our family and friends would support us, because no one wants us to leave!) :) Of course we know that all of you will at least consider it in prayer...:)
If you go to Cheney Faith Center pray about being on the missions care /support team that is forming.
Please be praying for us in all of this... for God's provision through His people... for our hearts as we transition... and all that comes with it...
Love to all,
The Millers
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